Thursday, July 9, 2009

The Voices in My Head

Me: Oh crap. I forgot my I-shuffle for my walk. Ah. Well. I’ll just enjoy the silence.

Five minutes later.

Me: Did I forget to lock something? Turn off the stove? Are my kids alright?? Why did I suddenly get this gut wrenching nerve fest and adrenaline rush?

Anxiety: Hey you stupid bitch! I’m the wrench in your gut and don’t you forget it.

Intuition (softly): I’m the feeling at the center of your being. Your inner voice. Don’t confuse me with Anxiety. He’s just messing with you. Don’t listen to him.

Me: Excuse me? How can I tell the difference?

Intuition: Oh. You just KNOW. Listen to me, your inner voice. Take a deep breath, exhale, and blow Anxiety right out of there.

Me: Sometimes I am not so sure if I can tell the difference. What if dismiss malaise as Anxiety and it turns out it was my Intuition?

Anxiety: HA!! Hahahahahaha. Good luck with that. I kind of like it here. You are both pretty fucking amusing.
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31 comments:

  1. mo.stoneskinJuly 9, 2009 at 9:39 AM

    Anxiety is Intuition's evil twin. Sagacity is their distant cousin. If she's around Intuition stands a chance, providing mad uncle Inner Monologue is on holiday.

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  2. MicheleJuly 9, 2009 at 9:39 AM

    Blow both of them off and daydream. It's what I do.

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  3. Angie LedbetterJuly 9, 2009 at 9:53 AM

    The writer's lot -- contending with all the crazy voices. :)

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  4. KristanJuly 9, 2009 at 10:08 AM

    LOL and this is why you always go back for the iPod.

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  5. JanJuly 9, 2009 at 10:22 AM

    I think our inner voices are related. Closely. Like twins.

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  6. Liz MaysJuly 9, 2009 at 10:31 AM

    Can you even have one without the other? Does one cause the other? hmmmmm....

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  7. Liz Wilkey (a.k.a. A Mom on Spin)July 9, 2009 at 10:40 AM

    All of the above are why they invented Xanax. . .

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  8. Sprite's KeeperJuly 9, 2009 at 10:40 AM

    Next time go one better by vocalizing the voices. Sure makes for some fun interactions with others!

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  9. LindaJuly 9, 2009 at 10:43 AM

    When I forget my iPod I turn around and lay on the sofa til it shows up;)

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  10. Captain DumbassJuly 9, 2009 at 10:59 AM

    Hey! I use my iPod to drown out the voices too!

    *twitch twitch*

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  11. Stacy HackenbergJuly 9, 2009 at 11:00 AM

    One of the great conundrums of life- which inner voice to listen to? Generally, i try to stay away from the one that sounds like my Mom.

    Oh, and I have checked out WordPress. Not gonna happen. I'd have to pay to customize my template/theme. I actually prefer Blogger's dashboard by comparison and their forums look no more useful than Blogger's.

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  12. Laura @ My Thoughts-UninterruptedJuly 9, 2009 at 11:19 AM

    Ohhh, I can totally relate. It usually makes me turn back around and go home.

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  13. PseudoJuly 9, 2009 at 11:28 AM

    Very happy this post did not get people with white jackets coming after me.

    And Texan - the comment about your mother - I wish I had thought of that.

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  14. cheatymoonJuly 9, 2009 at 12:10 PM

    Those two guys? Fuck with my head all. day. long.
    I thought it was just me.

    Hang in there.

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  15. Momma ChaeJuly 9, 2009 at 1:02 PM

    :) I've been there. Definitely been there. And then when I share my worries with my husband, he looks at me like I'm crazy.

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  16. Maureen at IslandRoarJuly 9, 2009 at 1:05 PM

    That'll teach you to forget your music and let your mind wander. A mind is a dangerous thing to unleash...

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  17. IBJuly 9, 2009 at 2:27 PM

    Thank GOD! I was starting to think there was something really WRONG with me. Well, maybe there still is, but it's nice knowing I'm not alone.

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  18. MikeJuly 9, 2009 at 2:57 PM

    Where are Depression and Paranoia? Did they get the day off? :)

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  19. DuchessJuly 9, 2009 at 4:01 PM

    I never walk with my iPod. (Housework is another matter.) I want to hear what is around me, though I know there are sometimes those voices. I have a lot of trouble with anxiety, but I don't think playing the loudest sound is the solution.

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  20. BethJuly 9, 2009 at 6:55 PM

    Thanks for making me feel more normal. And I thought those voices were only speaking to me.

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  21. Mango GirlJuly 9, 2009 at 8:13 PM

    I just stay confused and don't worry about too much...

    My ultimate goal in life is to accept the craziness with no worries...let everything be what it is.

    I am quite sure I am destined for the funny farm.

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  22. UnknownJuly 10, 2009 at 5:28 AM

    LOL... but never blow off intuition's voice!

    What's with 'Ashlee912' and 'Anonymous said...'? Doesn't he/she know they read the same?

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  23. JennyMacJuly 10, 2009 at 7:57 AM

    Haha. Must always, always retrieve iPod!

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  24. Midlife RoadtripperJuly 10, 2009 at 8:56 AM

    I just hate when the anxiety overtakes the intuition. Or the 100 other voices in my head. That does call for a white jacket.

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  25. Smart Mouth BroadJuly 10, 2009 at 9:17 AM

    And I thought the voices in my head were bad. Too funny! Sorry. *sigh*

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  26. AletaJuly 10, 2009 at 9:46 AM

    What a treat to read this! Thanks for the smiles. I loved how you gave intuition a "soft" voice. That's the one I listen to, the feeling that doesn't demand attention first.

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  27. CristinJuly 10, 2009 at 12:45 PM

    I find that a glass or seven of wine shuts those voices up nicely...

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  28. anymommyJuly 10, 2009 at 8:44 PM

    I have all the same characters in my head. Weird.

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  29. hillgrandmomJuly 11, 2009 at 5:02 AM

    I jut wanted to say that I loved mo.stoneskin's comment.
    My 2 are intuition and inner critic :-( anxiety isn't a patch on IC!

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  30. bernthisJuly 12, 2009 at 11:17 AM

    EXACTLY! why I wear an ipod

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  31. creative kerfuffleJuly 14, 2009 at 5:03 PM

    anxiety fucking w/ you sounds quite similar to your son doing the same in the post above! LOL

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