Friday, December 24, 2010


The magic and memories of Christmas can be like a tidal wave. Rolling in slowly and sweeping you up in its path.

Some holidays, though - they are meant to be low key.

A Winter Wonderland.

Or a day of rest.

To know that both are equal in each of their own particular ways.

I could look at this Christmas from one perspective and see the first year without my daughter here. The magical child who makes sure the stockings are hung, that Santa's presents are delivered despite there being no little ones in the house.

The first year after the debacle caused by the events with my mom this year. That left the little family I have left in the Mainland scattered about dusting themselves off from the fallout.

Or. I could look at it from a different perspective.

The year my Daughter brought the magic of a white Christmas to our home with her emails and photos and videos. My heart swells with joy for her adventure.

A first year in a new house in a new location. A place where everyone is finding balance and a light at the end of a long tunnel.

I know that somewhere down the line I will get to spend a Christmas with a gaggle of loved ones.

But this year I am content with the quiet.

With the smiles.

With the happy.

Happy Holidays to you and yours.

May peace, joy, and grace be with you.



Captain Dumbass said...

Merry Christmas, Pseudo.

Robin said...

A friend of mine is Russian Orthodox, and they celebrate Christmas and Easter on completely different dates than the rest of the world (Julian calendar vs Gregorian). She said one of the best parts is being able to celebrate with family that lives far away and can't make it to CT for the traditional Christmas date. Maybe take a page from that book and celebrate Christmas when your daughter gets back?

In the meantime, peace and joy to you and yours.

Irish Gumbo said...

I grok what you are saying.

Merry Christmas, Pseudo :)

cheatymoon said...

Merry Christmas, Pseudo. Enjoy your quiet and peace.


Kristan said...

Merry xmas, Pseudo. Sounds like you're at peace, which is the key to the holiday season (despite what we do to ourselves shopping...). :)

ds said...

Glad you have found the 'happy' at last, Pseudo. Enjoy your peaceful holiday, and may the new year hold nothing but good for you!

CiCi said...

Great song on the video. You rock. Hope your Christmas is wonderful. Mine is full of music. James is playing music all morning and things are going well for him. Hugs to you.

lisahgolden said...

Happy holidays. I hope 2011 is a good year for you, filled with things that are both magical and quiet.

flurrious said...

Merry Christmas, Pseudo!

Midlife Roadtripper said...

I'm happy for your peace. And that light at the end of the tunnel. Well deserved sight to see. Enjoy.

sage said...

Merry, merry Christmas. You can use my share of sunscreen for the day, cause it don't look like I'll be needing any :)

Stacy Hackenberg said...

Merry Christmas! I have getting experiencea Christmas without my kiddos, but it's coming soon.

creative kerfuffle said...

you are so good at finding the good in things. i'm late...but i hope you had a wonderful christmas!

Ann Imig said...

I like how you surrender to what is rather than what was or what will be.

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